Back here blogging, many things are happening around me lately. && I am seriously very stress about it. Be it about friendship, families or even relationship. Nothing goes out smoothly for me. -.- Hence i was wondering what did i really did wrong, && what must i do to make things work out for me.
Firstly, Friendship.
You guys may have many friends around you, but do you guys really know what are the real definations of true friends? Do you ever have a friend that betrayed you behind? Saying bad things about you behind? Well, i have. But sadly, i am not going to waste time posting about this bunch of traitors. What i want to say is, I am really having a hard time finding a true friend. But do you know, actually this true friend of mine is actually once my enemy? I didn't know that i could actually find a true friend that can really read me like a book, knowing what is it like to be in such a sticky situation like me now. Seriously, I don't really know how long will our friendship last. But as long as i survive, i considered you as my sister Shirley Ye Shu Hui. Perhaps you may not know how much you meant to me in my heart. But seriously, to me.. You are just like a gem to me. Even though i am afraid that holding your hand might break your bone, but still i love you alot. && I hope when you moved to toa payoh or sengkang, our friendship will still etched in your heart. I don't know how to express myself. But, i am clear that.. You will forever be my sister. =) Love you!
Secondly, Family.
Daddy&&Mummy do you both think i really don't want to go home? Do you think i can really stay at my friend place without any worries? You are wrong. I do wish that i can go home too, but why is that both of you are always so persistance of HIM? This is the decision i have choose, respect me cause i am your daughter. Not hate him. Get it? The main thing i want is you both to respect my decision, wish me luck. Hope that he can really give your daughter happiness. Not your unwanted words. All i need is your acceptance towards him. Once you really accepted him, i can tell you that we both are not bad kids. &&Slowly you will know that it's true love we are having. Not your so called "PUPPY LOVE". && Now you finally gotten your wish. That is we've broken up. Great isn't? You like to see your daughter suffering and crying over the spilled milk that you both made. That gives you both a very big pleasure isn't? Yes, i am the joker of you both. You both are happy. But what about your daughter, me? Haven you thought of her? She lost the person she really really loves because of you both. && i seriously hate you all for this! Especially you daddy, You are the master mind of everything. You tell people untrue stories about him, saying he wanted to beat you and stuff, but what is the real reason? Why did he wanted to hit you? Did you think? You didn't. He wanted to hit you because you cursed his father and said his mother. So this is his fault? He want his life to be like this? Think about your behaviour too, people respect you as an adult. But what do you treat him as? Nevermind, its a waste of time talking to you. Because your head is square! You cant think out of the box, you keep walking in square! I hate you for ruining my everything! 3 years plus, can't you just forget? Or what? You're a girl? If not why so petty? Nevermind, i shall stop talking about you. Cause i know you won't be reading my blog.
Thirdly, Relationship
26, We patched, break, patched, break. Everytime we break our hearts gets hurt, but when we patched things up. We healed the pain with time and got together back even happier than before. I am happy, but i don't know are you happy. It seems like the hardest thing i can ever do is to really live without you. But, so sad. Everything will sure have an ending. It's time for us to end too, I guess? I can never forget how i got drunk, I can never forget how is it like when i know everything just falls and collapse in just a day time. I can never forget the illusion i've heard.. Our quarrels, friends quarrels, family quarrels. It's just so noisy, I can't forget it's still up here in my head. This time, for sure and i know myself clearly too that, we won't get back together anymore. && I don't really wish to be your friend right now, maybe after some years when i get over you. I might still regard you as a friend. But, not right now. Cause whenever you get close to me, my heart is beating faster than before. Whenever you talked to me, i always feel the hope between us. Whenever you talked about other girls infront of me, how my heart aches, how my heart hurts. I really need time to cool myself down. I really need time for me to pick up myself. That is why i can't possibly be your friend now. I don't know what to do. This me i am seeing in the mirror made me afraid. Afraid that one day, I might not even recongnise myself. How foolish of me to be typing and crying at the same time. Stupid girl. Alright, i should really stop here.
Meanwhile, I am going MIA. As, i am really really really tired of what's happening around me. Don't be afraid, i'll be fine, I guess? So you guys won't be able to contact me untill i contact you guys. So take care people, I really do love you all. && When i am back, i promise i be a changed girl. A good girl. *winks
Site Statistic .
This is my site, i have rights to say what i want.
I'm not those kind of girl you know outside.
I've a weird character, which non have.
I'm single, taking a long long breakkk~
I love my brothers and sister.
I love hugs from friends (:
I've have a tongue piercing.
I'm short tempered.
I smoke.
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